Spiritual transformation is not a light topic, but one that will surely curl your hair. Just think what the caterpillar has to endure to become a butterfly and you know that transformation is not easy.
There are a plethora of times that I have experienced profound spiritual transformations in my life. Here are excerpts of the last two I have personally experienced.
I remember a
dozen plus years back I was put into a situation of great spiritual growth, yet it didn't feel like one at the
time. I had no idea what I wanted in life. It was just after 911 and tech consulting gigs were all put on hold. I was living off credit cards,
had to sell my house to pay down bills (so homeless), and moved into my sisters, for 3 weeks that is. Why so short of a time? yes at first i felt a few days of despair, but it was from that place where a great transformation for me occurred
once I discovered the good in my current situation. Once I changed my beliefs
about what I was experiencing from one that contrasted a positive to one of
gratitude, my world changed on a dime. In 3 short weeks I was back in a position where I could
move out and move forward again.
I think that
we find out what we are truly made of when we are put into situations where our
higher divine self tests our strengths. Based on my experiences, I believe that when
we hit our particular rock bottom or are provided with a crossroad, it is up to
us how the experience will play out and how long it will last.
At this point
in my life once again I find myself at a crossroads of sorts; I am single
again for the first time in a decade, renting a temporary furnished place in a beautiful part of the country, Sedona, AZ. I recently
resigned from a lucrative corporate career as a technology VP for one of the largest banks in the US where I was accountable for high visibility 25+ million dollar projects. I worked over 80 hours a week and although I was good at it and at the top of my game, it provided me no joy.
In the last year, I have gone within and what I saw was not pretty, but ego-filled and naive. In recent days when I questioned that decision of quitting the bank; I didn't get out of bed, but just stayed there and lived in the feeling as the processing continued. Other days I found my secret space atop the mountain where I would lay for hours and drink in all Earth’s beauty. I have been fortunate to be in a place that has energies that have quickened this introspective processing as my masks and walls disintegrated. No longer did any doubt enter my mind.
For the first
time in a long time I am truly free. I have no idea what tomorrow will bring but I am excited by the possibilities. The world is truly my oyster and I cannot wait
to rise early each day. I feel more alive now than I ever felt before as I catch
myself welling up with gratitude filled with my connection to the divine and drinking from the cup of abundance that the universe has provided. No longer do I walk the dark
path of indecision, fear and worry, but I go with the flow and take each step
with joyous eagerness. I find myself often breaking out in song as the deliciousness
of life unfolds before me and I find gratitude for the my many blessings each day. In the last year, I have gone within and what I saw was not pretty, but ego-filled and naive. In recent days when I questioned that decision of quitting the bank; I didn't get out of bed, but just stayed there and lived in the feeling as the processing continued. Other days I found my secret space atop the mountain where I would lay for hours and drink in all Earth’s beauty. I have been fortunate to be in a place that has energies that have quickened this introspective processing as my masks and walls disintegrated. No longer did any doubt enter my mind.
In conclusion, true spiritual transformation usually
has occurred for me after long hard battles, introspection and processing. It
lasts as long as my collective consciousness sees it as a less then positive
growth experience.
So I say to you this day do not recoil in fear when you face your crossroad, but know that
it's your opportunity to break out of your cocoon and become the butterfly. It is then that we rise from the smoke transformed
in all our beauty.”Wishing you a day filled with Love,
Posted February 26, 2013